A little Self Talk

A little self talk 

" You know How it feels here inside? You feel alone like it was when it was your first time. Same vulnerable , careful and fearful about the next moment..for you were scared what was going to happen in another few moments. Scared that it  might change the whole course of your life. You want to silence your thoughts and breathe for few moments but no, it ain't coming soon. At least, for some years.
Every night you go back having the same moment of rupture in your mind as the last conscious thought. Each morning you wake up to the thought of your life before and after the damage. You see yourself in the mirror. But, its not you who is seen, either its those negative images that you want to change or its those perfect dreams that you have visualized for yourself. Even though we are never sure of the future, a part of you already knows that your dreams are too  perfect to be true.
Days when you tell yourself to be brave find your hairs tossed into a bun, ready to take on whatever life has to offer that day. You take up your challenges. Spread the love you have already lost. Be the person that you have wanted to be- happy, witty, cheerful .. and many more such fictitious words. You confirm yourself with each passing day that everybody has pain. Happiness is elusive to those who have thought and are striving for it. Nothing it the world comes for free. For the bonds we never expected coming up, we have to repay them in tears. There is actually no escape not even sleeping at the worst times.
Your fears grow. You don't. You only get smaller day by day. You develop no self worth. But, you know what?


GO OUT OF THIS STATE OF MIND AND MAKE YOURSELF BELIEVE THAT CHANGE IS REAL. YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BAD IF YOU DON'T LET THEM DO SO. SO, MY DARLING, ITS YOUR LIFE, YOUR STORY. DON'T LET IT BE SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T WANT. COME ON, YOU ARE CAPABLE. LET GO OF THE SHIT. BREATHE AND GET GOING FOR YOU ARE BOUND FOR GREATNESS. AND NEVER FORGET WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNT IN THESE TOUGH YEARS. ALWAYS HAVE EMPATHY AND MAKE PEOPLE BELIEVE, SMILE AND SHINE. LIFE IS SHORT AND THERE IS NO NEXT TIME. LET GO OF EVERYTHING THAT CAN'T OR DOESN'T WANT TO STAY. FEEL GOOD FOR BEING BROKEN BECAUSE THAT'S HOW THE LIGHT GETS IN.
SMILE BECAUSE YOU SMILE IS POWERFUL. RAISE YOUR VOICE BECAUSE IT'S YOUR POWER. ENDURE, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW GOD IS WITH YOU.

ABOVE ALL, BE LIKE WATER. CHANGE FORMS, BE ADJUSTABLE, BE SOFT, KIND, ACCEPTING,  HELP PEOPLE WITHOUT GETTING SEEN. BUT, ALSO BE POWERFUL TO CUT THROUGH YOUR PATH, DESTROY THOSE WHO CHALLENGE YOUR MIGHT. AND NEVER BE AFRAID TO TRY BECAUSE MAGIC HAPPENS...YOU ARE MAGIC! :)"

By:

Rashmirekha Pandit