Hi there dear friend, I hope you are doing well. If you are, well and good. In case you think you aren't, read along.
For a long time, quite a long one perhaps, I have found myself in this state of 'not happiness'. It does jump into a melancholy nostalgia and other sad stuff. But, it usually is like a daily soap that always comes at the same time. Yeah, it's funny. That's how life is.
I used to think when we grow up we will smile and be happy. Increasingly I am realising that it's not gonna happen that way. And somewhere that takes a toll. I won't lie but feeling so much offbeat and sort of sad makes me question whether this is me being depressed or it is that I am playing a victim to myself. I don't know what is true anymore.
Well, the weird feeling is most of this isn't that new. The magnitude maybe but the elements are not. They have been there for quite a long time when I sit recalling. I was reading some of the old emails that I had, a lot of situations and feelings were similar, though not the same. I have grown and at the same time, I find something good there and something good here. Maybe, it's not much about how much we are or were, but how much we experienced. It all eventually helps, though not in that moment.
Well, why I started writing the post was I found a few pictures of me, my friends, some conversations and other things; it was all so beautiful and nostalgic. I mean, from a radiant skin to a rather ingenious and naive person, we have come through some tough times and are currently still in transformation. It just feels magical to look back and realise how lucky we had been to have each other. This is true for family, friends, and everyone. Not writing much now because I did not/ could not study much (happens a lot sometimes) and I should get back on.
Just wanted to express my gratitute to you all and also, reaffirm myself that we have been shouting that the sky is falling since long, it's not like that. It will be alright soon. As they say, we will get what we want or will be taken to where we are needed. Just keep swimming :D.
Smile dear, it's radiant and powerful.
Yours,
Rashmi ^-^
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