About Insects and me

 April 13th, 2021

The more I look around me, the more I find myself just lost in everything. You know, insects always seem to come to my room- all kinds of them. 

Today, I was just wondering why- and it led me to the fact that my room always has light from evening onwards, because I am so afraid of the dark. 

Am I also an insect? Afraid of the dark and trying to just stick to a light that feels familiar, as if giving vibes that it will keep me safe- until the Sun is up again? 

I have also heard, how insects and birds sometimes, burn themselves up in flames, while being attracted to the light therein. I wonder, if I am doing the same thing..

I am scared. I am scared of the dark. But now, I am scared a tad bit about my uneasiness around dark, around silences, and the familiar but discomforting association to light and some thoughts. I do not know if this is growing up or healing, but Goddamn- there is a lot of unprocessed mess inside my head..

Take care! 

(And remember what Winnie the Pooh said "You are braver than you believe, stronger than you se and smarter than you think)

- Rashmi :):

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#yekahadarkhaiyetozindagihai #:): #beingadult